Gay club yesterday

Well today I didn't do shit. WAs at the casino, I get out of there JUST in time get the last train. Just as this very hot girl sits next to me and says "hi" my LAST train pulls up. i look at the train. i look at the girl. I think "ah it's just another set. get the train" and i go for the train.

i though this was the sensible thing to do. the timing was terrible. like right when she sat down, my train pulled up. it was fucked up. like a test. FUCK!!

i should have said "you're hot, but that's my train. have you got a boyfriend?" and then just stayed if she said "no"

i guess i panicked. crap! she was super hot and she actually opened ME. that's fucking rare.

ah well

ok so, yesterday i went to this gay club on a boat. i wasn't gonna go, but one person told me about it and i ignored it. but then i run into this guy who is on this way there and he's like "dude there are chicks. seriously come with" ... he tells me he's going with this tranny and this other girl who's cute. i think fuck it, right? adventure.

we get there it's like 9pm. it's empty as fuck. we talk a bit and there's nobody to open. i almost left many times but stuck it out. eventually there are some people. i dance to this one cool song but slow down when it gets boring. this one girl is all over buddy, let's call him "bisexual guy" ... she's dancing with him and with me sexy also. i fell her up a bit and she's got a hot body but she's older, maybe early 30's. cute i guess but too old for me i think. also, she picked him it seems and he's dancing with her quite a bit .. i decide to wait for something better... later i talk to her a bit and when she realized i'm straight she is put off! i'm like "why did you think i was touching you up?" and she's like "gay guys always do that"

i say to her "you and my buddy was all over each other!" and she's like "i thought he was gay too!"

and i was like "no i was hard half that time. you have a hot body!" and she's like "eek!" and runs away.

so wait, a gay guy she wants his hands on her. straight guy, no good?? I've heard of this before but not been in the situation, or really given it much thought. it doesn't really make sense. so she was a fag had?? hmmmmm

i guess i should have kept my mouth shut

this "bisexual guy" was being really nice to me. and he called me today to see if i wanted to come out

he told me he's straight, but why is he being so nice?? i could have sworn on the subway he said he was gay, then bi, and then at the club straight. and he kept telling me about his ex girlfriends and shit. i think he's bi. he's alright. maybe just a friendly guy?

hmmm that's 2 guys that have # closed me in 48 hours. should i be worried?

Oh - and I think I may have caught something from the sweedish girl. yea - I didn't mention it before but I fucked her without a condom (eek!) ... i didn't wanna be a bad role model (lol) but now that i think i may have gotten something i have to blog about what i am going thru

i am kinda freaking out!! maybe it's in my head. but there's a very slight pain right at the tip and kind of a permanent wetness. not pain peeing. i'm going to get it checked out tommorow

god i hope i don't have anything, or anything serious.

she raped me. i swear. i just should have stopped her. argh. what a stupid thing to do. just when i'm getting good ... to put it all at risk for WHAT?? fuuuuuuuuuuck. i didn't even fuck her good. shit shit shit

i'm an idiot.

FUCK!!

and I got a student tommorow too. nothing like sarging when you think you have an STD! bah. probably it's nothing. i'll be ok.

ugh.

oh the other day a couple girls contacted me, the black girl from the club (we've been texting) and the girl from H and M. did i mention that? she actually called me. is that shocking? usually i am first to contact them... they are more eager here i think in sweeden. awesome.

might meet a couple of these girls before i go to copenhagen on thur. if not, not. i don't care that much as i am kinda freaking out.

stay tooned.