Fr sun jan 20st 2008 absolutely crazy Korean
So I text her around 10 and she’s indecisive about whether she wants to come out, etc. she doesn’t wanna go to mine and I can’t go to hers. She says to come meet her and she’ll take me “somewhere” … I ask where and she says “be creative” .. I’m thinking she wants to bang me in a park or something?
She tries to book us into a hotel. I say it’s not necessary as I live around the corner but she wants a place that’s “neutral!”
She forgot to bring i.d so we go back to mine
Then I proceed to have one of the most ackward nights of my sexual life/life
Where to begin?
Well I guess I’ll begin with the coke. She looks at me at one point and says “you wouldn’t think less of me if I do some coke” and I can safely say the answer was “nope” …
She does loooooads of it. Like fucking 3 lines at a time till she went thru the whole packet. I did like 1 line and I was shaking. I don’t do coke generally it has little positive effect on me and has given me the shakes once before. I was fucked up for around 30 mins and she was a bit freaked out.. after I took the line she wanted me to fuck her but I was like messed up.. I tell her later.
Later on she denies that she told me I wanted to fuck her. It was always like this with her. She would completely contradict herself all the time and just talk shit. She’s say one thing then the opposite. She got really coked up and just started blathering. It was absolutely the most boring shit I’ve ever heard in my entire life bar none. Try and consider just how bad that is considering she was one of the most boring girls I have ever met. I mean completely lacking in personality, charisma, charm, sense of humour. Just absolutely none of that, and add in “completely fucking insane” … oh and she’s absolutely stunning. Like model hot, I’d said 8.5 before but I was off. Like 9 / 9.5
Oh did I mention she’s a manic depressive, is on several anti depressants, etc. oh yeah. So she’s just going on and on and on and I’m trying to like, I dunno, take some sort of interest. I try steer the conversation about her but that doesn’t work. When she asks me to talk nothing comes into my head, I have absolutely nothing to say to this girl whatsoever. I don’t think I’ve ever been as disinterested in another human being as I was this girl. I knew this the first time I had her over at my place – that’s why I didn’t fuck her. God I wish I had done it then so I didn’t have to sit thru this shit. My god. And then when I’d try and tell her something about myself she wouldn’t want to hear it. If it was even slightly sad she would cover up her ears! She was the most selfish person I think I’ve ever met. Selfish in bed too, but just horribly selfish. She even said to me “you should have fucked me the first time” …. And “I’m fucking crazy. You don’t want me in your life – better you ditch me early” …. Virtually in those words.
So after like an hour of absolutely horrific mental torture she decides she needs booze in order to get physical and goes at the vodka. She went thru half the bottle, straight!
She said some very fucked up things to me
“Just tell me what I want to hear and you can do whatever you want to me”
She said “if you just say one thing to me, I’ll let u fuck me”
But no matter what I said it wasn’t the right thing. I ask her what she wants to hear and she wants me to tell her she’s an amazing girl. I don’t want to lie to her face
“It would help if you would tell me you would fuck me without a condom, because I’d like to believe I’m a good judge of character” - WOW!!
“I don’t care if I die tomorrow. Just fuck me”
at some point she felt guilty and did say “no wear a condom I don’t want to give u anything”
she was surprised when I asked her last time she’d been checked. She told me nobody’s ever asked her that before. I was like WHAT?? And she almost never uses condoms. HOLY FUUUUUCK. It certainly made my "do i have shitty condom sex with this girl" decision easy - let me tell you there's no way i'm doing her without fuck that!!
Oh this is nice – at one point she wanted me to be mean to her. She said “ I wish you never told me you didn’t want to hurt me. Be mean to me”
So I told her the truth. That she was completely boring, I didn’t like her one bit and that the only reason she was there was because she was hot and I wanted to fuck her. And I said I’d never see her again after and she was like “ok, but you took it a bit far!”
She said maybe she just wanted to vent to someone about shit outside her social circle, so there would be no repercussions.
Every time I got into it and was about to fuck her she’s say “I want another shot!”
Eventually I did a freeze out and was like “look I’m gonna sleep, just go home” and she was like “no no I don’t wanna stop!”
Another sound bite was “tell me It’s just sex. Tell me you don’t care about me” (again the opposite of the feelings she was trying to elicit before
I think this girl had multiple personality disorder (she’d joked about it once)
God this is so fucked up I don’t even wanna write/think about it. Anyway eventually she’s coked up and hammered and she wants to fuck. She keeps telling me not to use a condom. I’m not really that excited for most of it and worry about whether i'll be able to get one on – I manage to get a condom on and we go at it. She’s just flopping around like a dying fish. I stop. She keps falling off the bed. She hit her head on the floor. She was just all over the fucking place going mental saying “I’m so fuucked up! Fuck me!” it was creepy. I kept putting her back on the bed but she kept falling off. Eventually I put her in leg lock and held her. Got her some water when she wanted but she couldn’t sit up to drink it…. Eventually she fell asleep.
In the morning we wake up and I ask her if she’s ok. She asks if I want to fuck her. She tells me to put a condom on … I’m like “yep” … she is already wet. Then I fuck her properly, (well as good as I can with a condom) .. it felt ok I guess. I hold the first one it, but I just blow my load the 2nd one. Shouldn’t have done that as I like keeping my boys at home (and have a day 2 today, and Tuesday with the tube girl)
To be honest it was a waste of sperm. What a nut.
This is just like a quit re cap of how fucked it was. Fuck this
this is the dark side of the pua – i am just realizing you can pull some crazy motherfuckers into your life. A one night stand would have been so much better, 2 nights with this girl was way, way, way too much. Really i shouldn't have seen her again after I figured out I just didn't like her but she was so hot and i'm doing this (all of this) to be able to pull, and fuck hot girls - so even though being around her actually went against, well, my being itself, i went through with it.
at the end I tell her I have to go (kinda do) and try shoo her out. She makes a joke “well I guess you won’t want to see me after this” and I say “probably not” and she said “are you serious??” silence… I tell her she’s too crazy for me
she said she knows she’s insane but that she gets away with it… that's the power of looks right there, ladies and gentlemen (probably just gentlemen....) heh
she just send me a text as well saying she wants to see me again. Unreal
Still...that ass.... :D :D :D
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side note: i had hardly slept and went back to bed and slept the whole fucking day and missed the salsa - the girl sent me 2 texts, 1 saying she was coming late so she can't meet me before and another saying she didn't see me and was dissapointed. i told her the truth that i'd fallen asleep and invited her out on wed. i hope i don't loose the girl, she was very cute and sweet... it would be a shame...
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