Sasha's first spiritual epiphany! (no sex, sorry) :P

May 10^th

I can’t believe what just happened to me!! I had a spiritual fucking epiphany today. WHAT THE HELL!!

So I’d done my yoga class and I was feeling good. Once again, even when I think I have the timing PERFECT I miss the hottie. This one was smooking! FUCK!!

ON the way to the subway, there was a lady screaming her head off. I mean, she was really going at it. People were just staring at her like she was insane. A Proper nutcase. I did the same as them… I walked past her, and down the stairs into the subway. Then, a thought entered my head. Maybe I can help this woman. Is she not a human being? This is a soul in torment. I thought for a moment, maybe she’s too far gone, too crazy for me to talk to. But then again, maybe not. I thought, what do you I have to loose? Physically she can’t beat me up. Emotionally she can’t beat me up. I thought about everything I’ve been reading about and decided I had to go and try and help her…

Yes, I’m about top open an HB 0. Thanks you. ;)

I turned around, went back up the stairs and I spoke with her. I said “hey, are you ok?” and she looked at me… and it seemed like… she came back from somewhere. But when our eyes met, I knew she wasn’t 100% crazy. I said “do you need to talk to somebody? If you do, I’ll listen. No strings attached” she said, sure … she told me “I scream so loud, I’ve been screaming out loud for three years. I do it so much, my head hurts. I need some Tylenol!” ..

I ask her, “When did this start, your screaming?”

She says “3 years ago, When my husband had a baby with another woman. And he stole my kids!”

I said “that’s terrible. That’s really a terrible thing to happen. I myself had a traumatic childhood… I ran away from home, was homeless, death… but I went on and I got thru it… things can get better…” .. she was listening so I went on…

I asked her “are you homeless, hungry?” she says “no, I have a place” … I said “your kids they are safe? They are fed and clothed?” she said “yes” … I said “well, what are you screaming for? Everything is O.K. I told her how lucky she was to be in Canada, that kids were getting their heads blown off in Iraq…. That she could be happy if she chose to me…

She said “those wars, they’re not my fault are they? They’re not happening because of what the media has said about me?” … I said “no sweetie, those wars are because of greedy asshole like george bush, fighting for oil. They have nothing to do with you” … she seemed relieved. She said “I get paranoid sometimes… they have me on lithium for 6 months, but I don’t think it helps!”

I said, “maybe lithium isn’t what you need….” … I told her that the evil inside her is trying to drive her insane, but that it doesn’t have to defeat her. That there is still hope for her. I asked her “do you wanna end up like one of those crazy ladies on the corner? Homeless? “ she said “no, I don’t want that” … I said “Then recognize that god loves us all, that we are all one, and that god loves you, and that you can get past this and have a happy life… that you can still choose your fate….”

She nodded her head and said “yes… I believe that too”

I told her she’d see her kids again, but it wasn’t going to happen if she kept on like this. I told her to get a new psychologist (the old one she said wasn’t any good) and that she had the power to control her thoughts. That we all had that power.

I just generally re-assured her, listening to what she had to say and chatted to her for a few minutes. I didn't get to preachy about the re-incarnation shit or any of that.. i just wanted to help her not go crazy. I didn't really want to tell her all about re-incarnation or that stuff... I don't think really she was ready for that, so i mainly just used logic and spoke about god, and good in general – and our own power to choose our destiny.

She understood and she tanked me.

We chat some more, and after a while we had a pause, and she said quite normally

“I have to catch my streetcar”

I just got blown out by an HB0! Waaahahah!!

WEll, she wasn't screaming anymore! That's a start!

Anyways, as I went into the subway I felt really good about what I’d done. It was a good thing to do, afterall. To help another person. But, then I thought “hey, that was a soul in torment. I’d helped another soul on it’s journey. I helped pull her, at least somewhat, from the darkness to the light.

You see – in this book I’m reading it explains that, there are many different dimensions where our souls go when we die. The more developed your soul is, the higher up it gets. So, your average joe, that isn’t evil, goes to the 4^th dimension. If you’re really good, you go to the 5^th, super good, 6^th and so one depending on your level of awareness, love, compassion, and how much you help others. Jesus is in the 9^th dimension, as is Confucius, ghandi, etc ..

Anyways, there is a hell too, but not in the Christian sense. Some souls that have refused the light of Buddha, they are in the lower part of the 4^th dimension and they feed off the evil thoughts of US humans. So, when people become possessed here on earth (and there are many documented cases of this) it’s these bad spirits controlling them. But they can only get in there, if you manifest unhealthy thoughts and let them. Right. Oh – and your soul doesn’t stay in hell forever – but long enough for you to learn that you’ve done wrong and then you can get on with it. OK!

So, if this is true (and I was thinking about this…)

I knew that the demons from hell were poisoning her mind and for those few minutes that we spoke, I guess in a way I showed her the light. I gave her hope. I moved her closer to God. I’d helped another soul on it’s journey in this life. And just in that moment, as I was sitting there the subway thinking about what I’d done - suddenly – I felt joy. I mean, just really really happy. And, I felt like a wave of heat in my upper body. It was in my forehead and in my arms and a bit in my chest, and down my back. I understood in that moment that this is the highest calling for any person – I understood that thie is why I am here. To help others on this journey. I understood for me, i'm not just here to be a comedian, or a dating coach... I understood that to help other people is the greatest thing you can do. To help them understand the truth of our existence is a big part of that…. I Knew it.

IT wasn’t like a logical thought. I hadn’t worked it out using my mind. I just felt it. I felt joy when I understood what I’d done, and I felt that in my soul. In the moments after that, everything just felt more intense. I looked at other people on the train, and they just seemed, a bit brighter. Like It was slightly harder to look at people in the face, because, they were just bright. It’s hard to explain. When I looked at these people, I could also feel that they were lost. They were sad, just unaware of any of this, which I’ve just come to understand.

Then I went on and went to a bar for an event. I did meet one lovely 18 year old… who was so weird and nerdy and sexy. I got her number, texted her and she’s replied. We’re gonna do a picnic. It was a puppet show, that also had a woman singing. I was able to sit up straight and maintain good posture (This I attribute to the yoga) but also I was able to focus more, at times on the moment. I let the woman’s voice consume me. At other times, still, I was unable to focus on the moment, I was too excited by what had happened to me, and was actually fantasizing about writing it all down… I thought how much I wanted to blog about all this!! For the rest of that night (tonight) I just felt content. I know that I have to spread this truth to others, because it is the truth. So – both of you horny fuckers that are reading this:

THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN GETTING LAID

That being said, I’m gonna fuck more girls this summer than I ever imagined possible. There’s just more to life than that. Heh.

I want to learn more, I want to become truly enlightened. I want to feel Buddha’s love even more!! My life has changed forever. I understand why I am here - why I was born. I'm not afraid to die anymore - I am kind of curious to see the real world.... so when death comes, it is OK! But, in this life, I want to spread this truth, as well as make people laugh. AS well as get guys laid. I was spread the love – comedy love, sexual love, god's love, to as many people as I can! It’s all love, baby!

By the way, talking about this shit with girls hooks SO Deep I can’t even being to explain. I’ve got this book and I’ve just been saying “hey do u believe in re-incarnation” and that’s it. it’s the opener, hook, everything. BOOM! No game Necessary.

I want to thank you, Japanese girls for giving me that book! You did give it to the right person!! The irony: GAME brought me to this. Technically and otherwise. I spoke to that girl because I wanted to fuck her. I opened her because of GAME! And look where it got me! Hahaha… game brought me to GOD! How fucking ridiculous is that? My DICK brought me to GOD! How much fucking weirder is this pickup blog gonna get, eh?

It’s not even a pickup blog anymore, is it? I don’t know what it is. But I’m gonna keep writing!

I hope you are all doing well, Buddha bless you ;)

Sasha.

May 09th. Ok night... almost fucked, didn't realize I could have....

May 09

Went to an Electro place, not a lot went down. For a while I was dancing to the music having an awesome time. My state was so high, openers became completely beside the point. I knew In that state what I wanted to say to this one hot girl. “hey, you’re fucking goreous!” … that’s all that was needed. I saw her for a pee. On her way back, I reverted to a witty comment about her shoes. Tho I touched her as she passed, she kept walking and didn’t even notice me. I wasn’t sure if she ignored me, or just didn’t realize I was talking to her. I think “Well fuck this, I’m not having that!” and I went back in to find her. Couldn’t find her. She kept disappearing. Then, most people left and it was only like 12.45. state went down. Crap. Fuck it, I think I’ll just walk down the road and see what happens. Spoke to some other people, nothing much happening. Then I went into a bar and there were some smoking hotties!! And good tunes!! I’m like, YEA BABY! I open this girl right next to me. I’ve never had a girl less interested in a conversation. Then I realize of course what was happening. On the way out I say to the lady with short hair. “this is a gay bar, isn’t it!” and she says “uh huh” ….. I say “there’s not one single straight girl in the place, is there?” and she says “nope!” … damn it.

Walk into another bar. Get recognized by a woman who’s a comic. We just chat shit and I chill with her and some other people. I leave there, and there are some smoooooking hot drunk chicks. Like 3 out of 4 girls were HOT! I’m like DAMN. I simply talk to them and one of them hooks arms with me. I’m walking with them. They are a bit too drunk. One eventually tries to dismiss me, but I re open 2 of them that broke off. They are loving me… I try get their FB but one is like “no, don’t tell him!” I’m wtf? The cockblock says “ok, give us your name and we’ll add you.” I’m like “yea yea, whatever lady” and I walk off

Well, today she fucking wrote me this message:

“do u always wear funny glasses?....or, you only have two pairs those from your profile pic and the heart ones you were wearing on saturday night.”

Hmm…. So she didn’t want me to get her friend’s info, but she’s messaging me?? Maybe she wants me for herself? Or she’s just protective and checking out if I’m O.K first? I wonder. They were very hot, I’m not surprised. I’ll invite them all out to something and we’ll see. I’m really, really gonna have to work on my online game. This girls were smoking hot. I think getting them all out to something I’m doing is the best stragy… ;)

Nayways. Then at the bus stop, I open this girl out of boredom. She’s a lesser on the way to her girl. We chat a bit on the bus. But I look back and this cute girl is looking at me, so I shoot her my eveil eye. We having a staring contest and start laughing. So I chat with her. She’s really into me. It’s painful. she asks me loads of stuff … she’s staying at her friends house near me. I give her my FB when she asks where she can catch me. Oh – part of me was saying “get her number!” but that would be needy and I know it. she’s chasing me, let her chase. She added me today also. Fuck she looks good in some of those pics! Bit meatier than I like, but she’s very cute.

I realize now, I could have fucked her that night. I just had to say “cool I’ll walk u guys, I’m only 1 stop from here” (which I was) … and then when they get to their house just said “hey, u wanna come for a walk with me, it’s a beautiful night!” .. the friend would look weird and I’d say “I’ll bring her back in 10 mins, I promise” … they’d give each other a look and I’d go off with her. Within 2 mins we’d be all over each other, I’d say “call your friend tell her you’ll be back tommow, we’re going to my place” and that would have been it.

I KNOW I could have done that. Interstingly, I wasn’t THAT bothered about fucking her right then. I was more thinking “is she gonna add me on FB?” … how gay is that? I guess I’m still in a # closing mentality when I should be in a fucking mentality. CLOSE CLOSE CLOSE. Ah well. Whatever. But from now on, I’ll try and keep that in mind. This was a lay. Well, proably. Maybe she wouldn’t wanna look like a ho in front of her friend, but I think I could have pulled it off….

Turns out the guy behing me was high up in the actra union of Toronto. He spoke to me, then added me and said he thought it was cool how friendly/funny I was. A good contact, I suppose… he seemed like a cool dude. So, it was a bit shit at first, but at the end it got better.

I could have fucked tho. Right when I’d given up on the night, too. Haha. I guess I didn’t see it till it was too late! That’s always the way…. Sigh….

Fucking amazing day/night!

Last night was amazing. Went and did heated yoga. I almost made it thru the hole class without leaving the room. About 1.10 in I started loosing focus and overheating. I lied and said I had to take a piss and ducked out. He wasn’t happy about it (the instructor) … later it turns out he didn’t like me little joke. Durin the class he said “focus! You can ask people if their single after the class!” and I said “does that mean you’re single, then? … followed by “relax, I’m just kidding!” … there were a couple of chuckles, but I guess he doesn’t want anyone else stealing the spotlight. Fair enough – but from a PU perspective it was a smart move. I didn’t have to prove I’m funny, but I did want to give any ladies in there an easy opening should they want to chat with me later. Me making a joke in class does the trick.

This one girl was eye fucking me so hard when I went in there, it’s ridiculous. I could just sense her, and see her staring right at me, she was like mid 30’s… with a pretty good body but the face, I just wasn’t attracted to it. but got damn, a really hot girl was right in front of me. I feel stupid cuz she got away after class. She was like a fucking ninja, when the guys said the class was over, I stood up and she was gone! WTF… the 1^st time I went the same thing happened exactly. It seems the hottest girls are the busiest ones. Hmm. I laid don on a mat outside the class in the reception area and talked to this asian girl who just for kicks. I let my attention wane and I noticed the super hottie – she had been right next to me and she was already on her way to the lockers. SHIT! I fucked up! Then, like a creepo I lingered around hopin to catch some hotties on the way out. But guess what, they were already gone. WHAT THE FUCK. New strategy – be the FIRST guy out, and just stand right outside. Then when u see a hottie, jus open her as u walk to the station with her… so far my yoga strategies have failed miserably

I had the perfect fucking line for her too.

Excuse me, I don’t mean to be rude but do you think you could be in the back of the class next time? Nothing personal, but you are just too cute – and another distraction is the last thing I need when I’m trying out those crazy yoga moves!”

“hey, you’re not allowed to be in front of me during the yoga class anymore… the heat and positions are difficult enough without a hottie like you to distract me… “ or some shit.

My other opener which I did first class was “omg! I’ve seen you, you’re the a yoga ninja!! (can I be your disciple?) hahah…

Quality. If I can just run into these girls after the class I think I’ve got a shot.

Anyways, after the class, I did a set of 2 girls in a starbucks. They were in an intense conversation, in a language I couldn’t determine. I was like “hey, what language is that?” … they said Russian! I’m like “what?? I SPEAK RUSSIAN!” and after that I just went into comfort twith them both. Just, where they are from, how long they been here, known each other. Found out what they do, make fun of them a bit… (bit of attraction) … then simply brought up I’m a comic that’s back from Europe and I’ll be doin some shows. They’ve never been to comedy, yes they wanna come, facebook them both. Easy peasy

Both cute but the 2^nd one was hoT! As I walked away I thought I didn’t know if they were single or if they were interested and thought maybe I should have found out. Then again, better to just keep it neutral. Get them out to a show and they’ll want me anyways… or maybe I’ll invite them out to a movie with my friends or some other fun thing. I’m going to start doing the social circle shit Adam Lyons taught me in Toronto. Doesn’t matter how many girls there are, the more the better. Get them all out to the same event and they’ll all be fightin for me. Heh.

So, I was feeling great after my yoga but I was starving. I grabbed a pizza and swung by this comedy venue but kareoky was on, the comedy had been on the day before. Oops. I decide to go home, shower, drop off my back and then (hopefully) come back into town. But I was scared I’d lame out and stay in as I have a natural inclination to avoid night game. As I’m about to walk into the subway to go home, I see this hottie. Short, sort of Indian looking but very sexy. She’s holding a bottle of wine so I say “oooh this doesn’t look good. Girl. Alone. Bottle of booze. Do you need a hug??”

She laughs.

And we’re off.

Turns out she got the bottle as a promotion where she works, cuz she sold the most amount of booze. She’s going to a party at her house. A housewarming. We caht shit .. I get on the street car as I have no plan and wanna see if I can get her # or … come with her? She’s not too crazy but is a bit interesting. She tells me she’s in love with her man, though he’s an asshole. She tells me girls like assholes. I tell her I believe her. I get off with her, and I’m about to facebook her when this homeless guy decides, I’m the guy who’s gonna give him some money. I didn’t like his aggression so I wasn’t going to give him shit. He was really drunk too, so I know where the money was going. Anyways he fucked it and she excused herself… I should have re opened her but… the guy was really in my face. I told her my website, so if she wants to come she’ll find me. Buddy followed me down the street. I actually considered knocking him out. Then I thought, what would Buddha say? I dodged into a shop and pretended to look for razor’s. I check outside. He’s still there. Fuck it, I walk out and he’s like “there you are buddy!!” and I just walk faster. There’s a hottie wearing all black. I feel it’s the moment, I can open… but I pass her, then I go back and say “hey, you’re the cutest goth ever. And probably the only one with a bike!” she says “I’m not a goth, hey, I just passed you… “ and then she went on her phone. I think she knew I’d turned around to chat her up and that put her off.

Shit. She was fucking hot

The thing is, if you pass a girl, u can go back to talk to her (as was my preferred method of opening for months) but it has to be part of the opener. E.g “hey, I just saw you back there and I just HAD to come talk to you” or whatever

But, if you pretend to open her just casually, as I did, she knew the gig was up. I’ve essentially lied to her, first thing. Set over. Lesson learned. When u feel that perfect moment, DO IT. that moment of hesitation may have cost me whatever experiences I would have had with that girl…

I keep walking towards the bar area. Right after that, I open this woman who’s dressed all crazy. Now I’m not attracted to her at all. But, as I’m doing more and more these days, I was just being friendly! She’s just broken up with a guy. I console her… we chat. She’s a healer. Like a proper, full time healer. She knows all about the re-incarnation shit, has had religious experiences, etc. She’s like a proper, sertified monk. cool! I tell her we have to hang out right now!! We sit outside a bar where a band is playing some excellent rocky tunes. We talk and get to know each other. I tell her about pickup and she thinks it’s great and that I help people as she does. Awesome. This French girl is throwin me ioi’s but I hardly noticed. THE HEALER told me she was way into me. Haha. Yes, the French girl was doing the looking back at me over the shoulder thing. I spoke to her a bit and holy shit, she was very flirty. She was hot too!! Later the psychic healer chick had to go. I see the French flirty girl talking to two guys. I figure she’s looking to get laid, so I better get in there before she hooks up with one of them, as I do fancy some of that. I re open her… very quickly she points and goes “that’s my husband!” … of course, I’m not phased. “hey buddy, what’s up!” … he’s like “he’s always disappointed when a pretty girl says to you “that’s my husband!” … he’s not wrong. Hahaha.

I start talking to this guy, and I’m thinking “shit, please be an asshole. Don’t’ be cool. Don’t be cool. I wont’ be able to fuck that girl if you’re cool” … HE WAS THE COOLEST GUY EVER. FUCK FUCK FUCK. We spoke for a solid half hour… it was intense. He’s aware already of this shit I’m realizing… he’s done hard drugs … travelled… we really connect. Being friends with this guy is much more important than banging the French girl. Ah well. He’ going back in… I tell him I’ll be there in a minute. There’s a couple of cute girls to my left with this older dude. I chat with them. Turns out they all just met. This asian girl, she’s from Thaiwan. She’s unreal. Like, that tiny, tighh little perfect body that I would just tai for. Cute, giggly and awesome. She’s leaving Toronto at 5am the next day. FUCK. I didn’t think I could it… fuck her that night. I did try and bounce her for coffee but she was already planning on going home. I know if I was more routiney or I did some gay on her, probably I could do it. but I just cant be fucked. Damn she was cute. We take some hilarious pictures. I get her facebook, she agrees to show me a good time if I come to Taiwan. I also get the # and FB of the other portugeese girl. She’s very friendly, pretty cute with a nice bod. I’ll give her a call and see what’s up. I get buddy’s email too, not to leave him out. Yes, I will invite him out to a show too…..

Also I met some dudes to my right who I chatted with, told about game. I shared with him some of my pickup strategies and they wanted a way to reach me. I swap email with them and say maybe we’ll hit a club sometime. One seemed a bit afc’ish… potential student I think to myself. I am a bad man. Haha

I go into the bar. I enjoy the band. Some very drunk girls come in, one of them … extremely hot. Like, uhhhhhh super hot. Amazing EVERYThing. Small drawback. She was maybe 18/19 (that’s not the drawback) and ABSOLUTELY WASTED. I was like “where were u guys before this?” and she’s like “I dunno”

Sex with her would be… pretty rapey. I don’t bother.

I meet this other dude, let’s call him Mr Personality. Oh yes, he had character. He invites me to this other club where he knows the bouncers and we can get in. cool. He explains to me that he knows I was cool cuz I charmed this one girl that was there he was after… I didn’t find her attractive but I joked with her and gave her a spinning bear hug… so there you go. Once again just bein friendy…. (she wasn’t hot either) :P

So, we hit this one club. I tell him about game. He’s like “stop stop!” I don’t wanna know! I get girls.. I’m scared if you tell me this stuff, and it’s stuff I do naturally, it will fuck me up. I don’t’ wanna know why I do what I do. I agreed with him and told him about naturals, etc. he’s a very smart guy… he takes me to this after hours place and we talk for like 2 hours. Pretty deep shit. We really, truly bonded. I was very honest with him. When we got there, he was trying chat up some bird and I couldn’t be fucked hanging around there. People were all druggies and shit, not my scene. (it was an underground afterhours club) … so I told him “look, I just came to chill with u bro, I’m gonna split” but he really appreciated that (And that I told him he’s too drunk for me to talk to) .. that sobered him up and we chatted for, like a couple hours. He shared with me his failures… he’s got the same fear of success that I have (or had?) … it was deep shit. But he was drunk. He insists we’ll go for lunch. I don’t think I’ll ever see him again, but I hope I do. He was the most interesting person I’d met that night… and the night wasn’t over yet! I may have had a couple of intereactions with babes but it really wasn’t my thing in there. Eventually I split

On the way out, I ask the bouncer if he’s Nigerian and make some joke that only a black man could laugh at… he gets it. I explain I love joking with the blacks as I do a lot of black only comedy shows. We start talking. We have a deep conversation about a BROAD range of topics for… no less than 90 minutes. A bit annoying really, as he had to do his bouncy stuff too. Jesus, 3 people came out and puked during that time. That is NOT sexy!!

This guy told me some seriously fucked up shit. He casually said “remember that program where the police were offering amnesty and (I think cash) for people to turn in guns? .. Sure… He asks “where do you think those guns went?” … I already know the anwer. He reveals that he comes from a smaller town in Canada. He explained he wored for a security company and that shitloads of drugs and guns were regularly transported around and sold. The police were directy involved…. If that was going on THERE… it’s deffo going on here in Toronto. He says most of the towns in the country were build up on drug/gun money. Yea, that doesn’t surprise me. He also told me the industry for getting the western European girls working as callgirls here is HUGE and the gov’t does JACK SHIT. These girls are brought here with promises of good earnings, then they have their passports taken away and they have to fuck for little or no money. And the gov’t does nothing. Yea, Canada is just as fucked as the U.S, really. We just don’t have the army to go around blowing people up so we maintain a certain level of popularity. But deep down, we’re just as eveil as US, U.K, Israel … we’re right there in it.

We talked about how people are followers, that they live their lives based on fear and don’t stand up for themselves, or others.

WE talked about ancient civilizations, that earth has had far more advanced people on it that us in the past… this I’m fully aware of. Then he said “remember that satellite they sent to mars, they made a big deal about it? then it disappeared and they haven’t mentioned it?” .. I think I remember. He goes “yea, there’s being living up there and they destroyed it. it’s the ancient Egyptians, they live UNDER the planet. They changed their dna so they could do that”

Whoa! Haha. Ok, maybe a bit too far. But hey, There’s water under there, so u never know!! Anyways this guy works this major club and he says to swing by any time and he’ll hook me up! Cool. It’s not my type of music but he says the girls are smooooooking so I just may have to check it out! We’re gonna do lunch too. Awesome dude. Oh – his game is tight too. HE totally agreed with me on my non-escalation theory (don’t get too physical with girls unless you know u can close the deal) or they’ll never see you again. He was like DUDE THAT IS EXACTLY RIGHT. He finished my sentence for me when I was telling him… also I learned some stuff from this guy…. He was like “Bro, if you put your hand on their pussy and they don’t push your hand away, you are getting laid. That’s the test. Don’t take ‘em home if you can put your hand on their pussy” hehe… I know a lot of guys do this shit in clubs. I never do, but… I’m gonna try! That would be fucking hilarious for day game. I’m gonna pass that on to my student “ya have to get your hand on their vagina…” wahaha.

Anyways. Holy shit. I can’t properly cover the conversations I had but god damn what an amazing night that was. Truly amazing. I got like a dozen contacts for people who are all like “ya, invite us to your gig!!” … some of the girls I will try “game” over FB and see where it goes. I have to work on my online game so while back home in Toronto is a good a place as any!

As I was in the shower I was felling so fucking good, thinking about the night, all the people I met… and I thought “I don’t even need to get laid. I just need to be”

Whoa. What the fuck is happening to me?

End of blog entry.

Lost lay due to techinical fault!! FUCKING FUCK

May 7

I am a retard

I called the south American girl. We chatted (was a good chat) and she was up for coming to star trek on on Saturday. I ask her what she’s doing now, she says she’s about to watch a movie. Alone. I tell her I wanna watch it with her, that’s way more fun. I tell her to come over. She asks a few questions like “do you live alone?” I say “nay I have a roommate, he’s really shy around girls though. But he’s really cool when u get to know him” …. You could be a serial killer! You could kill me! I reply “I may make some bad jokes. Or fart on on you a little. But I promise, not to kill you”

(funnier would have been “I promise, if I do kill you, I won’t have sex with yoru body after) haha

She asked “will you walk me to the subway after, when I go home?” … I say “sure, I’m a gentleman… of course I’ll walk you”

Then she asks “do you have to be up in the morning?” I say “no not really, I’m not doing shit!” … she says “ok that’s cool. That’s the reason I’m coming over, because I don’t have anything to do tomorrow either”

Basically, she’s coming over the fuck and that’s that. It’s amazing isn’t it – if you have realy comfort during a prolonged set, that a 10 min conversation on the phone after that is enough for a girl to come over to your house. COMFORT IS THE SHIT! This is the element my game has been missing. Woooooo!!

Now guess what happened? Well we agreed she will call me, when she gets to the station near my house. Around 8.30. there’s no call for a while but I figure u know how girls are they take foerever, etc. I was shaving, showering, and frantically cleaning up the place so I didn’t mind. Then as I’m washing dishes around 9.15 I hear a loud sound. I realize I left the phone off the hook! Shit! I call her, no answer. I call her an hour later, no answer. Crap. I text her and she replies “I thought u were gentle. I was wrong. I called u and your cell was off”

FUCK!! I texted her explaining what had happened and not to be mad … she said she’s call me but she hasn’t and I don’t think she will…. What a silly way to loose a lay, not by any real mistake but by not hanging up the phone properly. Then again maybe it’s an excuse and she just freaked that she’d agreed to come over. I was considering going for a swim right after we’d hung up around 8, so I called her from my cell to give her that number around 8.05 and she didn’t answer, or call back to ask who it was. Part of me thinks that if she really wanted to see me it would have occurred to her that maybe that was me calling her and she’s have at least texted sayin “who is this” but she did not. So maybe she just freaked and used my “phone being off” as an excuse. I really don’t know. If I ever talk to her again I’ll try and figure it out. Right now though, I know I have to leave it for a good week and then try her again. Ah well, pity. She was a sweet girl…

Amazing Conversation with Ace...

Conversation with Ace

I just had a deep and powerful and revealing chat with my good friend ACE. This guy is full of so much wisdom and knowledge that I actually feel like I’m cheating somehow knowing him. I actually worry that I won’t be able to remember everything I learned talking to him, that I’ll forget some of our epiphanies and thoughts … but I guess that’s silly. It’s all up there, somewhere.

There is so much going on at a higher level … we were like breaking down minute things that, 6 months ago wouldn’t have been in my reality. Ace is better at comfort, than… anyone. Officially, he teaches charm. But he know so much about all aspects of game. I’m mesmerized, listening to him break down the most minute points, teaching me how to make a girl totally and utterly fall in love with me. I tell him I’m actually slightly in awe… that I know his comfort is like no-one else’s. He tells me he feels the same thing talking to me…. That he envies my ability to create perfect openers for any situations. Aww. Basically, we’re sucking each other’s cocks. And you know what? It feels good pretty good! ;)

He was teaching me a lot about the advanced comfort it was a bit scary… .Like I know if I do this shit to a girl, she’ll never leave me alone. I told him I honestly am not ready for that information – I don’t want it. and even if he puts it in my head, I’m not going to use it. I’m not ready for that kind of love. I’m too much enjoying the PU lifestyle. Many girls, lots of random sex. I don’t want any girls falling for me. I already have a couple that are really into me … it’s not something I really need. MAYBE I want to have a girlfriend… maybe… but I don’t think I want her truly in love with me. Not yet….

Some of the shit he shared with me is brilliant, and evil at the same time. I can’t share it on my blog I’m afraid, unless he gives me express permission. This is like, the ninja shit. I told him he should teach guys this stuff – how to make girls fall in love with you. How to keep girls around. He expressed dismay at create and army of monsters with the power to destroy women’s hearts. He has a point.

I really don’t know at this point if I want to fall in love. Isn’t that a bit weird? What kind of person doesn’t want to fall in love?? Pua’s are weird, lol.

Ace claims he has a weakness in his game which is opening … simply because sometimes he hesitates and doesn’t open sets… of course everyone does that. He still opens more than 90% of guys… being only surpassed by myself and Yad. Just the same, I came up with a little mission for Ace on the spot. I said to him “ok man, from now you’re playing tag, constantly, with every girl you fucking see that’s hot. Even before you know she’s hot, you run up to her and touch her and go “tag! You’re it!” and then whatever happens. Or just kino her, and some shit will come into your head. But if nothing does “tag, you’re it!” will do. Even if you have to explain to her that you’re playing a game with cute girls in order to get over your anxiety about talking to cute girls. But you’re going to touch every hottie you see from this day forward. Don’t even think about an opener when u see a girl. Fuck that. Just touch her.

Yes, It is a good fucking idea, if I do say so myself. (ego gratification! Oooooh yeaaaaa, (sucking my own cock! nice!)

So, to anyone out there that’s struggling with AA. Fucking do it man. Girl tag. What do you have to loose? You’ll find when you actually run up to some cutie and grab her elbow – something will come into your head. Whatever it is, SAY IT. And if nothing comes…. You can just go “tag! You’re it!” it will lead to a conversation. It’s FUN right? Right. If you're reading this thinking "hey, that's a good idea" this means YOU. YES YOU. Don't just think "hey, that sounds interesting and fun, that could work for someone" .... IT COULD WORK FOR YOU. Stop being a pansy bitch! Go and do it for a week, the write me and tell me how it went.

Anyways, we also talked about what may very well be the ultimate form of daygame. It’s a combination of my, yad, and sexy arab’s style. It’s difficult to condense what we said … we spoke about this one topic for like half an hour. Essentially, ace was experimenting with the idea of lower energy opening – like at the energy we were having our conversation. We discussed how sexy arab just will just assume repore and go straight into conversation. We talked about Yad’s relaxed vibe and direct genuine compliments. We talked and expanded on my hook theory, having that energy and excitement at the beginning of a conversation. We talked a lot about my epiphany about being too funny…. After all this we came to the conclusion that a fusion of all this may be the ultimate solution for daygame. The key is, having passion in what you’re saying, but not being high energy enough to alienate the girl or freak her out. It’s almost about, going straight into comfort. Like, open – quickly share something with passion, and go straight into comfort. So, banter/hook, immediate comfort. No jokes after an initial (possibly) humorous opener. But that's in - then you just have to get the girl to open up! But how to do that? This is the part of the puzzle I want to work on a bit more.

I’m formulating an exact series of moves that should have the highest possible success rate. I think I know what it is, but I’m going to experiment with it a bit before I put it up.

I think I have it. honest. Maybe not. Haha. But I think maybe I do.

Naaaaaaaaah I’ll change my mind again in few weeks.

We actually spoke about how amazing it is, no matter how far we get, there’s always tons more to learn. I don’t think the journey ever ends….. and that’s cool!

I so appreciate the friends I’ve made thru game, this amazing stuff. It’s like a type of magic… no… it IS magic. The magic of… social interaction! I’m starting to appreciate how very lucky I am. In so many ways… I guess that’s the sign of a fruitfull friendship. When you talk to someone for 2 hours straight (That’s sign enough) and then afterwords you think “shit, I am so lucky” …. Yea. That’s a good friend you got there. I am happy.

p.s I checked my blog stats today. I had over 700 hits last month. That seems like a lot. Are dozens of people actually reading this shit? I thought it was like 5 guys, heh. I like how everybody’s shut up since I attacked anonymous posting. You fuckers.

Ooooooh I’ve been meaning to start a video blog to compliment this blog. So, this week, I’m gonna post a VIDEO on here of me teaching game shit this week. That should be fun. What should I rant on? AS it’s my first official video blog, I thought I’d let you, my legions and legions of fans decide.

1) How to hook virtually every set

2) destroying your AA FOREVER

3) how to create opportunities in everyday life to maximize your chances to meet the girls you wanna meet

4) why you should only go for girls you really find attractive

5) My current theory, broken down, on the most effective formula for daygame.

IF you guys want a vid on a particular subject, leave a comment and whatever is the most requested, my first video entry will be on that!! Yayyyyyyyyy

Am looking forward to it!

Comedy night!!

Update: well, geekyfunnysexygirl sent me a message, after flaking last week claiming she lost her phone. I ignored it for 3 days. Today I replied with “you are so disorganized! I’ve lost all attraction for you – now I just wanna adopt you and help you get your life together! - “I’m doing a gig tonight at xyz….”

(this is tyler durdens routine… I hate to turn into a routine monkey now but … it was perfect for a really flakey girl!) ….

She sent me 2 messages back saying “I’m sorry you don’t think I am an okay person anymore. School has been crazy! I hope you are awesome tonight. I bet you will” … and right after “I might be able to make it. I’ll try my best. See you later comic?”

I didn’t reply, and she didn’t show up. I think I vowed not to call her again, or contact her but I’m not sure if that’s the right move. I think one text now saying “show was awesome, where were you?? If you want to meet up, give me a call sometime today and we can arrange something….”

The comedy show went awesome!! Tenmagnet showed up while I was on stage, which was hilarious. I wasn’t expecting him, and he actually looks a bit like Cajun, who I was expecting. I was like “I KNOW you….” Eventually I realized it was him.

Cajun was gonna come with a girl but he flaked. That’s right. CAJUN IS A FLAKE! Ha. Take that buddy.

Well, he probably fucked the girl he was with. He BETTER have!! Hehe it’s ok. I still love him. He’s got an eye patch now. How can you not love someone with an eye patch?

Excited about life, and yet slightly bored in Canada....

May 4^th.

A warning: This blog entry will contain some gay ass, spiritual shit. Mixed in with some stuff about game. So proceed at your own will…

It’s been an interesting few days. I’m fairly motivated, and trying to stay that way even though I’m back in Canada. For a while I though “maybe it was me, maybe I was just running, maybe it’s not that Canada’s boring….” Bullshit. It is fucking Canada. It is boring. I’ve been here less than a week and I am perfectly happy to get the fuck out of here and go back to… anywhere really. London, Amsterdam, Stockholm, St. Petersburg. I’d rather be there than here. Or shit, Asia. Anywhere. South America. But, I’m here because I need a base. I need to get my shit together. I need a good solid website… I need to get good daygame sets recorded and put online. I know I can grow and have a great business teaching daygame and have a hell of a time doing it… and that’s not gonna happen with me bouncing around country to country. I have to decide pretty much now If I wanna get a work visa to return to the U.K for june 10… but I know if I go there, I’ll lose focus. London is just too much fun. I NEED to be in boring Toronto to get shit done! Haha. It’s ridiculous. Part of me thinks, I should be able to work on this stuff anywhere that has internet. So why not go to st. Petersburg? Or Stockholm? Or go stay with my friends in Vietnam or korea?? I’ll figure it out. Now, let’s get back to what you’re all here for. The pua shit!

*cough*

I went to a yoga class a few days ago. IT was Bikram yoga, which means it’s in a heated room. You sweat like a motherfucker. I was literally dripping with sweat. I couldn’t actually make it thru the whole 90 minutes. I tried, believe me. I went to my point of endurance, got my 2^nd wing, got to my 2^nd limit, pushed thru that, and then I actually felt I was gonna pass out. Even after quitting the posees and laying flat on my back, I couldn’t take it. I’d been defeated by yoda. I’m gonna do it a couple more times tho… YES THERE WERE SOME HOTTIES IN YOGA! I was being very social, just chatting with anyone. It occurs to me that good game is not running game. Good game = you seem like a really social guy that just talks go everybody. You can’t be accuse of picking anyone up, you’re talking EVERYbody. That’s what I was doing. I was very good.. I must have met like, shit, 10 people maybe? Out of 35 or 40? The one girl I really wanted, she didn’t say much when I spoke to her. She was unreal. The rest scurried off quite fast… but we’ll see, we’ll see….

A couple of days ago, this cute Japanese girl was giving out flyers to something. Well, I just HAD to see what the deal was… as you know there isn’t a whole lot of things I love more than Japanese girls. there may not be anyting I love more than Japanese girls (yes, Russian girls and Swedish girls are up there!) … anyway she was flyering for this Japanese spiritual leader who will be doing a chat in Toronto. She was cute, and I loved her energy. We spoke for a good 10 or 15 minutes… I said “you must have a husband!” and she was like “yes!” …. Damn it! She really was just super friendly, it wasn’t an IOI :(

Anyways, one of this guy’s disciples was doing a talk the next day. I wasn’t really interested in going… I’d already gotten her email address to invite her to my comedy gig… thought she was cool and I’d invite her along (and friends) etc…. but … she gave me this book for free. It was one of the books written by the guy. His name is dyuho okawa. The guy has written 500+ books. Fucking riduclous, right? Anyways, the book is about re-incarnation. Now, I haven’t really give it much thought before. I just thought it was some goofy eastern shit. I’m atually very against organized religion. Well, more specifically against Christianity. But I started reading the book and the next morning I thought, fuck it, I’m gonna go.

I went to the talk. The “disciple” didn’t speak English too well, and was explaining basic stuff which was already covered in the book. I went out and talked to the girl again, who was very happy to see me. We chatted for a while, at least 20 mins. She’ very interesting, and comes from a broken home, same as myself. We bonded.. I met her husband and some other people from their group. A couple were a bit too happy clappy for me. I dunno, maybe I’m a cynic or some shit…. But after further consideration I’m starting to think I believe in re in carnation. Now wait…. Hear me out! There’s actally tons of scientific evidence that supports it. What!! Yea, no shit. Apparently there’s a whole book called “journey of the soul” that’s about how they put people into hypnosis and they all reveal similar stuff about past lives. So either it’s a massive conspiracy, thousands of people are crazy, or …. There is re-incarnation. There is a really interesting story about a kid who used to be a fighter pilot on you tube. If you google reincarnation it’s the 4 thing town. Wait, here’s the link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_EWwzFwUOxA

Pretty crazy huh? Compelling might be a better word.

ANywho, At the meeting they kinda loved me and game me another book by that guy. Brand Spanking new one! Woo! I’m gonna read more shit about it …. Don’t worry. I’m not gonna stop chasing girls or anything. Heh

Today I went into town to see my chiropractor, check out a venue to do a comedy show, and do that crazy yoga class again. I opened a few girls as, naturally, I would. One girl was in a health food shop. Now, I started joking around with her merely because I was in a good mood. I didn’t really find her particularly attractive. But, she was a right laugh! And, talking to her about stuff, she was into all this kinda crap. And she’s been to thaiwan and told me it was the shit!! We had a great talk and really bonded. I told her I’d invite her out to a comedy show… but she was like “I don’t use online stuff, blah blah some other reason for not giving out her number” and I was like “how do I reach you about the show?” and she’s like “you can call the shop!” and I’m like “ok cool, I’ll call and leave a message” but she then takes the card and writes her email address on it. Then she says “I never check it though!” yea right. She had a bit of game, I suspect. I really wasn’t interested in sleeping with her… I’d really like to chat to her again, she was interesting. I think that was the first set in a while where I might have meant “hey you’re cool, I’d like to get to know you better/meet up to chat sometime” … usually it’s bullshit. Great, is that what it takes? The dorky girls I’m not attracted to are gonna have the personalities?? Fuck. Haha.

Then, there were some sets that went absolutely nowhere. But they all opened great … state is so important. Like, a couple of the sets today were with those, easily scared girls. they are just a bit scared of everything, u know? The first one I fucked up. I was chatting with her ok, but she wasn’t giving me anything. When I asked “so, what’s the deal with the guy you’re meeting!” she was like “ I don’t wanna talk about it!” and I knew that was the end of the set. She just wanted to get rid of me after that L … the reason was, not enough comfort for that kind of slyglty personal question. But, she was generally the shy/scared type – not the kind of girl for me anyways

But, this Japanese girl I opened shortly after was the same type. My state was great, so I joked “don’t be scared! It’s not a robbery! I just wanted to practice my Japanese on you. You’re Japanese right? I knew it! Yea I’m going there this summer, blah blah” and I was away. She’d only been in town for a month. She was cute, but … well I dunno. I didn’t connect too much with her but I got her email, so we’ll see. But if I wasn’t very happy/positive she’d have ran the fuck away from me for sure

Then, next set was this brazilian girl. She was 28, but looked younger. Pretty good body, and cute … I just opened with “hey, I can’t find the comedy listings in this paper! What the hell!” she says blab la, I says “omh, are you from….” And we’re away. This girl I connected with – we spoke for like … 15 or 20. a while. I spoke about re incarnation, religion, travel, languages, lots of stuff. I was really in comfort building mode. This shit is reall powerful. In fact, when I went back into “comedy sasha” she once actually went “stop that, be serious” haha… she was really enjoying the comfort building, the connecting. I’ll tell you what, this girl isn’t gonna flake… and neither is the dorky girl from the health food shop. There was something there… actually the south American said to me “I have a connection with you, I never just stop and talk to people” …. It just shows that, anyone can build a connection with someone if you know how to do it. It doesn’t mean faking it, just knowing how to find out what people are about and taking an interest.

I think I’m getting to a point where I’m genuinely interested in getting to know people, their stories etc. it’s not just about fucking them. I actually wanna get to know girls first and then see if I want to sleep with them. Pretty gay huh? Haha. But seriously. The sex would be so much better… this doesn’t mean I won’t do any more random street/subway/club pulls. Im sure I will. But it’s not my goal anymore, not really

Actually, recently I find the term “pua” kind of gay, and the idea of going out “sarging” kinda stupid too. Why would you go out there, just to meet girls? don’t you have better shit to do? Don’t you have a life to live? There are so many girls everywhere anyways – surely it makes more sense to go about your business and talk to the girls that you run into. I’m really into this now… I think it’s great. Also, it comes off as a lot more genuine for a couple of reasons. If you’re really out doing other shit, they can pick up on that. You can be honest. Also cuz I’m doing shit, I’ll only open girls that I really fucking want… and they can FEEL That. If I come up to a girl and say “hey, I’m on the way to my yoga class but I just HAD to tell you, you are totally cute….” … you see how that’s so much more powerful than “hey, you’re cute!” or “hey, can I ask you something” or any other BS. You’re in the realy world, living a real life. Plus, it shows you have a live (yoga, for example) and also it gives her an immediate topic for discussion, should she need something to latch onto if she’s interested.”

Does this makes sense people?

I guess I’m at a place now where getting laid isn’t much of an issue anymore. So I can say “hey, just live your life, talk to who you want” but 1.5 years ago, I didn’t wanna do anything but go and try and get laid. Haha. How far I’ve come I guess in that time. These days I really wanna focus on my comedy, and my pua business… and just learning. Books…. Friends…girls…. travel…. U know? Just live…..

I’ve come to the conclusion (as many of my “pua mates” have realized) (shout out to virgo and dunners, blap blap!) living life and bettering yourself should be your #1 priority. Women should be your second ;) …….. strangely, when you get down to the business of life, growth… you will run into, and have greater success with the women that you DO meet. I think. Ask me in 2 months if that’s true and I’ll let you know. Hehe.

Then again, that’s just what I’m feeling now. Maybe in a week I’ll be like “YEA WOOO PUA ROCKS! YEA!”

I dunno. I just write what I feel in the moment.

Don’t get me wrong. Game is great. All this what I’m doing now, it’s all because of game. But wait, that’s not true. It’s all because game put me in touch with me…. So … it’s all because of me. Those girls today that liked me…. They liked ME – I was just my fun self, a little bit less funny. that’s all it is. I love life. Life is good.

Now, I have to get some fucking work done!

I love you all! Write comments! Ask questions! I’ll answer them as I am feeling very happy and am fairly bored in Toronto!

Ps – I’m happy and I’m not getting laid right now!! Haha (ok, it’s only been a week, but still) :P