Day 2 Lay - My first chinese girl!! sweet!!

tube girl came over and we had a picnic on my bed. Very messy. Weird I didn’t want to sleep with her. Maybe we just don’t have a physical connection? She’s pretty fun but I’m not that into her. I think I may have ethical dilemmas sleeping with a girl for whom a) it’s a big deal and it will mean something. I should have slept with her on day 1 !! Don't matter.

anyways I shoo her out to meet the Chinese girl (got her # on the street jan 18^th) … I though I’d never see her again after sleeping through my date after the crazy Korean sex, but she messaged me over the weekend to meet up and we agree for Tuesday.

I meet her around angel and we go to that coffee shop traffic. It’s fucking shit drinks in there. It looks all trendy but their milkshake was absolutely atrocious – last time I was there I wasn’t happy either. Anyways we’re in there for a bit over an hour. She’s a funny girl. She negs me all the time and I’m like “omg!! You’re so mean!!” and I take the piss out of her lots and she hits me lots. She has the cutest fucking laugh. And she makes the cutest little giggly noises it’s really adorable!! She asks me at one point “so, what are you looking for” … I gave her what I’ve learned is the right answer

“I’m not looking for anything. I thought you were cute and spoke to you… then I though you were really fun and wanted to see you again so here we are”

it’s the truth and it’s generally what they want to hear (or more specifically it’s not likely to be what they DON’T want to hear)

i.e if you say “I just want to have some fun” you can trigger their slut defense. If they know that you don’t want a girlfriend etc it’s harder to sleep with you, right

or if you say “I want a girlfriend to love forever and ever” you’ll scare away a (party) girl who may just be after some fun, hence the answer I’ve given. Just my thinking anyways

so we are getting on quite well. She tells me she likes me and I make her laugh. I’ve already told her I like that she makes me laugh, but I said I like her too, that she’s fun. Now the old me would have tried to make plans to see her to do something else

the old me

but after a couple of months of hard core gaming I know how this is supposed to go, right?

I do one of my comedy kiss closes (I point and say, what’s that?? Over there? She’s not falling for it, but looks anyways knowing full well I’m up to something. I try kiss her but it’s blocked off but we both laugh.

So I gently try and kiss her again after a high (big laugh) but she’s shy so I just kiss her cheeck. I know she wants to make out though

One more try and I get her lips, no tongue…

0h I played the lying game which worked a treat, and kill mary shag (didn’t work as well)

I tell her “let’s go for a walk!” … she asks where? And I say “just wherever – around”

We walk around… I ask her if she wants a piggy back and try jump on her back (always gets a big reaction) then I give her one and she loooooves it.

After that we make out properly. We walk some more with interspersed kissing. At this point I need to see where I’m at so I check the busses going back towards mine. She asks what I’m doing and I say “just seeing how I get back to mine from here” and she says “nooo!! Don’t go!” so we keep walking. She says (even tho we we’re walking toward her place) that it’s quite far and she’s have to take a bus. Then she asks if I’d walk her to her house. I say

“You want me to take you to your house, so you don’t get robbed on the way? Or you want to hang out with me at yours house?” she makes a joke how I’d need to fill an application which takes 5-6 months to come to her house. I say I have some movies at my house, we could watch one and I could give her a backrub. I ask her if she wants to go to hers or to mine. She says “I dunno!” and shrugs

then all the posts about “lead lead lead” come into my head. I say

“ok, we’re going to my place”. I hook her arm and we cross the street to the bus stop

she jokes about how it’s far away and I say it’s close!

She says “ok but you have to get me out of your house back to mine by 12” and I say “sure!”

We get back. She sits on the bed and I go pee. I come in, put some music on. She says “how are we going to watch a movie with the laptop over there?” I say “we don’t have time for a movie if you wanna be out by 12 (it’s almost 11) unless u wanna watch half a movie?? I’ll just give you the massage

I know she’s up for it and that as long as I escalate things at the right pace it will be fine

So I sit next to her and just rub her shoulders for a min, then I say, lay face down

Then I do her neck and shoulders a bit and say “hang on u want some oil?” and I just put a bit of oil on her neck. Couple of minutes of that

Then I start going under her shirt and say “ok this has to come off!”

Then a min with the bra still on, then I undo that and just do her back. I kiss her neck etc and she likes it. She starts putting her bra back on… I’m like “huh” and she says “I want to turn over” … this is critical… it’s just a matter of comfort – we know we’re going to fuck, but she doesn’t want to just turn over topless – but it’s ok if it comes off in a moment of passion (like a minute from then – lol) but it’s important to remember this

Anyways so we kiss and bite and lick her everywhere, she pushes me over and gets on top of me!! She goes to town on my left nipple for a while

Man making out with this chick is hot. She’s a good kisser and she’s fucking horny! Oh she hasn’t been laid in 7-8 months she told me on our date. (well, no BF since then but I’m pretty sure she hasn’t had any the whole time)

We frolick around, she goes berserk as I bite her all the way down to there, panties come off she is fucking SOAKING!! JESUS!! I think “well that’s enough foreplay” hehe

But no, more messing about. She gets me on my back and undoes my pants… she tickles my balls semi thru my underwear and it was awesome. I was getting anal play in here (lick pushing in but thru my undies) which felt fucking amazing. This chick was no virgin!! Anyways we’re naked, I show her the box of condoms and she nods and does her cute little Chinese approval sound. It’s a combination of that cute sound and a little approving head nod (like a mini bow) … soooo cute!!!

I put it on … I climb on top and I proceed to thoroughly to fuck my very first chinse girl. Jesus Christ she was making pain sounds. Like she was in pain. I ask if she’s ok but she doesn’t say anything. I go very slow at the beginning but she’s still moaning a lot … that changed to sounds of delight and we had a goot 20+ mins of sex. Several positions … had one internal orgasm, stopped myself and took a 60 second break. Then back into it… 2^nd time I let myself ejaculate (aaaaaargh I know!! Where’s my discipline!! But come on my first chinse girl!!) DR Yen will have to forgive me hehe

Afterwords she said it did hurt at the start cuz she hasn’t fucked in a long time and it hurts more with condoms (she doesn’t use them either as only has sex with boyfriends) … same as me – (well same as me up till now, lol)

After she asks me very open stuff “what’s your favorite position, what do you like to do in bed, etc, do you like oral” … fucking hell!! I could have a lot of fun with this girl! I guess she’s going to be one of my fb’s!!

Oh… I bought some condoms and have officially decided to use them with everyone (unless I get a girlfriend) … it’s just too dangerous. It’s apparent where my game is at a point where I’m going to be fucking a lot of different girls…. I was coming from a different mindset a few weeks ago, where I’d just have sex with the occasional girl. But not it’s apparent that I can pretty much fuck a least one or two girls per week…. it’s more a time issue than anything else – I genuinely don’t have time to see all the girls I have #’s for… I’m still not calling a lot of girls – I text some and if they don’t reply I don’t bother with them … but I’m goin to only go after super hot girls, and not text, just call. Texting is the pussy way out I think.

Anyways this is a massive turning point for me. I met a girl on a day 2, I lead, I brought her to my place, escalated at a level that was quick, but comfortable for us both and I fucked the crap out of her. I really can do this as much as I want – anybody can. It’s just a matter of

1) time in field

2) calibration

that’s it.

My first street makeout!!!

Ok we hit up cargo last night, "free booze" and entry but we got there too late for that

I'll keep in short


opened hb 8.5 french girl standing in the corner. tried to get her to dance and stuff but she wasn't really any fun, was fairy boring and when i went to kiss her she tried to ram her fucking tongue down my throat. not going to bother calling her tho she was pretty hot

opened hb 8.5 russian who was pretty cool - told me she'd just hooked up with some awesome guy around new years who'd been with her for 2 weeks but he just went back to his home country. have already invited her out to a show and she's coming along

was a good set with this other french girl who i got massaging me but she joked with me (using my routine) that she didn't have a vacancy for another man ... ah well... i left my wicked ass yellow glasses on the table and went i went back they were gone. there's 6.50 down the fucking drain. will pick up another pair in the west end tommorow (fucking loved those glasses! FUCK!!)

Highlight of the night came at the end ... We're hitting the streets opening sets (YAd, Max and I) and there's this very cute girl waiting for the bus. i game her about 10 mins. she was a laugh, turkish girl. sexy accent. she was about to cross the street to go pee and i said "we gotta go this isn't even our bus stop" but i said i wanna see you, i'll give you a call. here's my card in case you put the wrong number in my phone, facebook me ... then i just moved in an kissed her. i think it was more she kissed me i just gave her that look, and she did, so it was mutual. oh she was a good kisser, which made up for that sloppy shit from the french girl. mmmm

i've just called her 15 minutes ago and we're meeting up tommorow at noon.

also got a text from the greek girl who wants to see me but i don't fancy her that much

also got a text from the salsa girl (8.5) wants to meet me tommorow

and i'm meeting tube girl for our day 3 today.

jesus christ. and i haven't even called my makeouts and other #'s from last week yet. this is getting fucking ridiculous!!


also i've decided to stop being a bitch and call 2 very hot girls in my phone that have flaked

one i met on the bus (insta date) on new year who was stunning

and one girl i street gamed who'd sent me a couple text but then didn't reply. i figure i real man would just call - yea they've flaked but i should be able to get them to meet me talking over the phone so i'm going to give it a shot. they are both 9's ... the ultra hot ones are still flaking on me though i've reduced the flakes a lot the last 2 weeks with qualification... will keep working at it...

Day 2 with tube girl + hb 9.5 russian on tube

Went on a date last night with the tube girl last night. oooh! she hot!! hot hot hot!! On the way there was a fucking stunning girl on the tube. I said "oh my lord, you're the hottest girl i've ever seen on the tube!" ... "but i've only been in london 7 years!" ... (probably funnier to say "it's my first day in london, haha!" ... anyways she loved it and i met her and her friends there, hung around for 10 mins with them. basically just used my boyfriend routine (she said she had 10) and i ripped on her for it. got her (russian) number and kissed her friends on the cheecks but not her as i left them "baaah, you get enough kisses from your boyfriends!!" hehe she loved it

anyways had an awesome date. girl told me she's never made out with anyone after meeting them for 5 mins before, etc that she can't believe it happened etc. I wanted to see "bitch you never met a PUA who could do shock and awe before, lol"

heheheh anyways i didn't use any game on that date at all we just chilled and it was awesome. we talked about all the shit we were gonna do to each other and she's coming over thursday to watch movies and i'm gonna teach her to play poker. hehe....

Crazy drunken Korean Sex

Fr sun jan 20st 2008 absolutely crazy Korean

So I text her around 10 and she’s indecisive about whether she wants to come out, etc. she doesn’t wanna go to mine and I can’t go to hers. She says to come meet her and she’ll take me “somewhere” … I ask where and she says “be creative” .. I’m thinking she wants to bang me in a park or something?

She tries to book us into a hotel. I say it’s not necessary as I live around the corner but she wants a place that’s “neutral!”

She forgot to bring i.d so we go back to mine

Then I proceed to have one of the most ackward nights of my sexual life/life

Where to begin?

Well I guess I’ll begin with the coke. She looks at me at one point and says “you wouldn’t think less of me if I do some coke” and I can safely say the answer was “nope” …

She does loooooads of it. Like fucking 3 lines at a time till she went thru the whole packet. I did like 1 line and I was shaking. I don’t do coke generally it has little positive effect on me and has given me the shakes once before. I was fucked up for around 30 mins and she was a bit freaked out.. after I took the line she wanted me to fuck her but I was like messed up.. I tell her later.

Later on she denies that she told me I wanted to fuck her. It was always like this with her. She would completely contradict herself all the time and just talk shit. She’s say one thing then the opposite. She got really coked up and just started blathering. It was absolutely the most boring shit I’ve ever heard in my entire life bar none. Try and consider just how bad that is considering she was one of the most boring girls I have ever met. I mean completely lacking in personality, charisma, charm, sense of humour. Just absolutely none of that, and add in “completely fucking insane” … oh and she’s absolutely stunning. Like model hot, I’d said 8.5 before but I was off. Like 9 / 9.5
Oh did I mention she’s a manic depressive, is on several anti depressants, etc. oh yeah. So she’s just going on and on and on and I’m trying to like, I dunno, take some sort of interest. I try steer the conversation about her but that doesn’t work. When she asks me to talk nothing comes into my head, I have absolutely nothing to say to this girl whatsoever. I don’t think I’ve ever been as disinterested in another human being as I was this girl. I knew this the first time I had her over at my place – that’s why I didn’t fuck her. God I wish I had done it then so I didn’t have to sit thru this shit. My god. And then when I’d try and tell her something about myself she wouldn’t want to hear it. If it was even slightly sad she would cover up her ears! She was the most selfish person I think I’ve ever met. Selfish in bed too, but just horribly selfish. She even said to me “you should have fucked me the first time” …. And “I’m fucking crazy. You don’t want me in your life – better you ditch me early” …. Virtually in those words.
So after like an hour of absolutely horrific mental torture she decides she needs booze in order to get physical and goes at the vodka. She went thru half the bottle, straight!

She said some very fucked up things to me

“Just tell me what I want to hear and you can do whatever you want to me”

She said “if you just say one thing to me, I’ll let u fuck me”

But no matter what I said it wasn’t the right thing. I ask her what she wants to hear and she wants me to tell her she’s an amazing girl. I don’t want to lie to her face

“It would help if you would tell me you would fuck me without a condom, because I’d like to believe I’m a good judge of character” - WOW!!

“I don’t care if I die tomorrow. Just fuck me”

at some point she felt guilty and did say “no wear a condom I don’t want to give u anything”

she was surprised when I asked her last time she’d been checked. She told me nobody’s ever asked her that before. I was like WHAT?? And she almost never uses condoms. HOLY FUUUUUCK. It certainly made my "do i have shitty condom sex with this girl" decision easy - let me tell you there's no way i'm doing her without fuck that!!



Oh this is nice – at one point she wanted me to be mean to her. She said “ I wish you never told me you didn’t want to hurt me. Be mean to me”

So I told her the truth. That she was completely boring, I didn’t like her one bit and that the only reason she was there was because she was hot and I wanted to fuck her. And I said I’d never see her again after and she was like “ok, but you took it a bit far!”

She said maybe she just wanted to vent to someone about shit outside her social circle, so there would be no repercussions.

Every time I got into it and was about to fuck her she’s say “I want another shot!”

Eventually I did a freeze out and was like “look I’m gonna sleep, just go home” and she was like “no no I don’t wanna stop!”

Another sound bite was “tell me It’s just sex. Tell me you don’t care about me” (again the opposite of the feelings she was trying to elicit before

I think this girl had multiple personality disorder (she’d joked about it once)

God this is so fucked up I don’t even wanna write/think about it. Anyway eventually she’s coked up and hammered and she wants to fuck. She keeps telling me not to use a condom. I’m not really that excited for most of it and worry about whether i'll be able to get one on – I manage to get a condom on and we go at it. She’s just flopping around like a dying fish. I stop. She keps falling off the bed. She hit her head on the floor. She was just all over the fucking place going mental saying “I’m so fuucked up! Fuck me!” it was creepy. I kept putting her back on the bed but she kept falling off. Eventually I put her in leg lock and held her. Got her some water when she wanted but she couldn’t sit up to drink it…. Eventually she fell asleep.

In the morning we wake up and I ask her if she’s ok. She asks if I want to fuck her. She tells me to put a condom on … I’m like “yep” … she is already wet. Then I fuck her properly, (well as good as I can with a condom) .. it felt ok I guess. I hold the first one it, but I just blow my load the 2nd one. Shouldn’t have done that as I like keeping my boys at home (and have a day 2 today, and Tuesday with the tube girl)

To be honest it was a waste of sperm. What a nut.

This is just like a quit re cap of how fucked it was. Fuck this

this is the dark side of the pua – i am just realizing you can pull some crazy motherfuckers into your life. A one night stand would have been so much better, 2 nights with this girl was way, way, way too much. Really i shouldn't have seen her again after I figured out I just didn't like her but she was so hot and i'm doing this (all of this) to be able to pull, and fuck hot girls - so even though being around her actually went against, well, my being itself, i went through with it.

at the end I tell her I have to go (kinda do) and try shoo her out. She makes a joke “well I guess you won’t want to see me after this” and I say “probably not” and she said “are you serious??” silence… I tell her she’s too crazy for me

she said she knows she’s insane but that she gets away with it… that's the power of looks right there, ladies and gentlemen (probably just gentlemen....) heh

she just send me a text as well saying she wants to see me again. Unreal

Still...that ass.... :D :D :D

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side note: i had hardly slept and went back to bed and slept the whole fucking day and missed the salsa - the girl sent me 2 texts, 1 saying she was coming late so she can't meet me before and another saying she didn't see me and was dissapointed. i told her the truth that i'd fallen asleep and invited her out on wed. i hope i don't loose the girl, she was very cute and sweet... it would be a shame...

Cute chinese girl! Will this be my first oriental??

fri 19th jan

Went out with a couple guys and we just hit tottenham court road tube for some night street game. Got 3 numbers, one solid. Chinese girl HB 8. We connected and agreed to go for salsa on monday

Just opened her from the side as she was walking with normal banter, and we chatted. found out she was single, told her i'd never had a chinese girlfriend and asked if she just dated chinese guys or white guys too...she said both but after further investigation her last 3 guys were chinese!

i think i'll see her again for sure

i felt the qualifications i was doing really were working - i knew she liked me a lot because she had her back to her bustop and wasn't even looking for her bus while we were chatting which is a pretty big Indicator, amongst others... this girl i will see again...

4 Makeouts in 1 night! I'm a slapper!! lol

Fr Friday jan 18th

Was supposed to meet the hot Australian from insta date at 8pm with her friends so Invited along yad, seb, don…. Chicks didn’t get there till 9.30 but we went off to eat for a bit. Seb invited out this older girl with big tits. She might have been a hb 6.5 or 7. not bad. She was really horny. When she left exchange bar she was all “so uh, am I gonna see u again…” she was so dtf

Anyways eventually my girl comes with 1 other. We chat but when I try escalate she makes jokes like “hey you’re still in the friend zone, blah blah” and once she even said “we’re not going to have sex!” and I was like “ok” … though we were getting along well… then I went off to find seb and he’s like “escalate you dumb fuck, she’s on a day 2, she showed up, she’s DTF! 2 minutes, be making out!” so I went back and held her hands, cuddled her, did (more of shoulder rubbing – I’d been at that already) then kissed her neck a bit then we were making out pretty soon. She wouldn’t full on make out deep tongue, (just moderate tongue) … said she never makes out in bars but we kissed enough. She was actually exhausted and her and her friend (who don eventually got through to – heh) went off. This is good because I wanted to try some shock and awe shit tonight

Deeboy meets up with us as well and i met him for the first time. This guy is really friendly - great energy about him. We go into town and go to this one bar, forget the name. not a lot going on in there really though I opened a few sets. Just not hotties. Like 1 or 2…. So we’re going to the tube and opening sets along the way… 1 set of hot girls that hooked but they had to go drop their shopping off at home. We should have been more persistent… anyways seb and dee want to eat so me and don head up to koko’s to meet up with Yad, who’d left 9.30 to koko’s) …

On the tube over there there’s a HB 8 on the tube platform and I go shock and awe on her, but with normal situational opener “hey that looks comfy how you’re sitting (she was leaning up against the wall half sitting” … now we can both look silly…yaay” … so we banter for like30-45 seconds and I start “oh my god you are so fuckking hot!!! Where did u come from??” blah blah interspersed with normal conversation but every few seconds

“I can’t even focus on talking to you. If we went on a date I wouldn’t even be talking I’d just me mumbling GA GA GA and you’d think I was a retard”

“I’m not usually like this I swear!”

chat chat chat

“normally I like to get to know a girl but I just can’t keep my fucking hands off you, you are so hot (touching her)

“you must get stopped like 20 times per day but guys. I’m such a looser, I know, but I just can’t help myself. Just slap me if you need to”

“you should put a fucking paper bag over your head when you leave the house, that would stop this from happening” – this one works so fucking well – it’s a huge compliment, and always get a big fucking laugh too

and eventually

I tell her to stand up and give me a hug….i say “come here” and she holds me and I hug her… then I do a little routine I came up with

“Can we pretend I’m your boyfriend and you’re my girlfriend and we love each other? Just for a second? And we’ve just had the most amazing sex? … that feels so good! (props to Yad as the “pretending” aspect came from one of his routines) the hug was good, then I kiss her gently on the forhead (props to Ace_Pua – great move!) and then

“I am trying to hard not to kiss you”

BAM

makeout

we’re all over each other. I’m molesting her, her tongue is down my throat hard core. She actually GRABBED me and pulled me in for the kiss just as train pulled up. She’s a Welch actress, 26 had cousins staying with her and really wanted to come with me. She hadn’t been laid in over a year and she only works with gays!! Ahahaha she tells me she has to see me again!! Get her # after makin out/groping her on the platform


get to koko’s and there’s a HB8.5 just walking in… I open quickly

“shit are there going to be girls as hot as you in there? You’re so fucking hot. I don’t even need to go in there if you stay out here. I bet the girls aren’t as hot as you. You could just put a string going around you and charge a fiver and guys would be just to hang around you you’re so fucking hot oh my god. “

talk for 30 seconds

“jesus how many boyfriends do u have? Like a dozen? NONE? WHAT?? Your vagina must be broken! Haha! Blah blah” # close …

more shock and awe lines…. She tries to go back in the club, I take her hand and say “kiss me once before u go in…”

she kisses me on the mouth… I can feel it … I pull her in she gives me another one with a bit of tongue…
.
BAM

(Semi) Makeout (brief)

She says “come meet my friends” and I try sneak in without paying but the bouncers wise to it and she goes in. I have her # for later….

Go in the club walk around open a little

Go outside there’s a 2 set hb8 and hb9.5 swedish girls but looks like this one guy is working them. Dunno I think he’s after the 9.5 so I talk to the 8 a bit, he seems ok with it. I go shock and awe

Same stuff I just go with the flow …. Took around 5 minutes and I was kissing her lips. She was smoking and it was gross so I didn’t wanna make out … she wasn’t super hot so I went back and said I’d see her later. Really I wanted the friend… ah well

Dozed off the the couch upstairs, bouncer woke me and I said “I’m ok man!” (have been up since 7, for me that’s early!!)

At the end of the night got the hb8swedish girl’s number and make out with her and she said to call her. I wonder if I can get her friend out and pull a switcharoo?? Is that bad? Her friend was so hot and oriental looking..mmm

So… 3 makeouts in the club and 1 for my date. I never though it was possible

I am finally starting to understand. You just fucking go for it, really. Just kiss them. Period. If they are talking to you for any length of time, and they are qualifying you (i.e asking you ANY questions) they want to make out. That’s it. Tell them they’re fucking hot and make out with them like a real man would.

End of story.

I have just reached the next level….

Thanks to SEB who pushed me to escalate that set and overall wisdom, props to yad for teaching me what “persuasion” means… (still have to start really applying it to get girls back) and to and switch_seattle who told me weeks ago the girls were just there for the taking and I wasn’t seeing it..…. you were right dude and I’m going to start doing that shit this week… woooo - And everyone else on here for their encouraging comments … now I’m just going to start dragging all these girls home with me. If they’re not like super hot I don’t care. I’m not even bothering to call most of these girls now, what’s the point? I realize now that I can go into a club and just makeout and drag a girl home… so I’m going to start shooting for that more and more

So it’s day 12 of my challenge and finally I think I got my calibration down for make outs

Oh I have to say today I was walking around and everytime I saw a hot girl I just wanted to make out with her. I just felt like in another state like I could just talk to any girl on the street and make out… Also It feels like… I’m just giving that look when I look at girls. You know that sexy “I wanna fuck you look?” well after last night I have that look. And you know what – it’s not a look you can fake. Just like you can’t fake inner game. You have to really WANT to make out with the girl. You have to really WANT the girl. Laser eyes is a feeling that comes from the inside… that’s what it is… it’s intent! Hehe… now, finally I can really add that skill to my stack. I know what laser eyes really means! I’m about to get a lot more deadly…hehehe

I love you guys!!

Sasha

Jan 16th she wanted to fuck but i didn't do it!

Jan 16^th

Sarged like a mofo in the day. 3 numbers, some facebooks. Nothing magical, just working on qualifications. Having a laugh and # closing. Seeing one girl either Friday or Monday, texting the other though she’s dating 2 guys already (told her I was way more fun than them and she should drop me a line if she’s ever around my area) and the third one, I can’t remember her name but I’ll look for it and drop her a line. Had some heavy attraction with somegirls that had bf’s … this one in particular LOVED me … just gave her my card

I think I should try get #’s for really cool girls even if they have bf’s. just to have them around, really, even without any kind of intentions. If they’re hot and cool, don’t I want them around? Am realizing that qualifications are more powerful if they are genuine and represent/weed out what you are actually looking for. Also, honesty works. Just read seb + deeboy’s report with the underwear models (go read it if you haven’t!!) and it made me realize that we should not be hiding our intentions with women. We should be more open about them. I mean hell, if I can walk up to a woman and say “damn you are fine. You are too hot to be out here, you’re going to causing accidents and shit” why can’t I be honest for the rest of the interaction? why can’t I say “ok I respect you have a boyfriend, but you are cool and I think I’d like having you in my life, and you’d enjoy having me in yours. So let’s make the effort to see each other again… even if it’s just as friends” … isn’t that a fucking huge compliment? It is. And I’m going to say that next time I’m talking to some awesome girl who’s into me who happens to have a boyfriend at that time in her life. So what? Who cares? I never go for girls with BF’s but… if I meet one that’s truly amazing and she’d be happier with me, maybe It’s morally wrong not to pursue it? Ooh I’m getting into dark territory… I don’t know… I’m just getting tired of letting the really cool ones go (they always have boyfriends!!)

Anyways remember the hb9 walking thru leisester square I insta dated on Monday? Well we met up just for half an hour on wed and the chat was quite sexual. She said “I didn’t see you as a sexual being the other day but I am now” …

During our install date she just said that she really liked me and I was fun, etc…

We were huggy and stuff after the 30 min date but she’d do like a freeze out on me if I did something too… touchy…. So I’d freeze her out back, then she’d wanna hug again. It was weird.

It gets weirder…

Later on, after I’d done my gig, at 12:46 am I get the text “how was the showw” but I’m talking to my mate on the phone… then I get “let me know when you’re done with performance,”

I text back yea cool, did u get your studying done etc

She sends back “working is doing my head in so im chilling in my room. If we cldn have bought done. Dvds to watch, I need a break from workkk”

Which doesn’t make a whole load of sense, tho I suspect she wants to watch a film with me? As I’m replying “what!?” she calls me and asks me to come round to her to watch a movie. I explain I’ve just got home and she shoulda asked me an hour ago! I said she can come over to mine if she wants and she starts qualifying…

“Do you have a nice laptop?”

“do you have any good dvd’s?

“Is your place messy?”

I’m like “uhh it’s not too bad I guess. I can’t believe you’re asking how good my laptop is… weirdo…. Shaddap and get in a cab”

Next time I’ll say “bitch, it’s a crap laptop, the movies suck and I live in a shithole- you coming or what?

She comes over. We talk and this girl has issssssssues. She is so gaming me it’s not even funny. She doesn’t believe anything I tell her asks me how many girls I have been with , and tell her - and she doesn’t believe it. She freaks and calls me a liar. I’m like “no I’m not lying, I haven’t banged millions of girls…” Asks me last time I had sex. Basically she suspects I’m a player… at one point I’m cuddling her a lot, kiss her neck she says “so what movie we gonna watch?” … so again another freeze out lol

I start fiddling with my laptop going thru options, but we go back to talking and cuddling. LMR she had was classic. It was like we knew why she was there but it was like token resistance/lmr combined. At first, I could lick and kiss her body/breast but she shirt wouldn’t come off for a long time. Eventually it came off. Some resistance to panties/trousers coming off…fingered her with them on eventually they came off. Fingered her, she came. Tried sebastians squirt move but she didn’t like it. Maybe I did it wrong. Some of the shit she was saying the whole time was

“I should go home”

“I can’t believe I’m doing this”

“what are we doing?”

after fingering her she was so horny she said “fuck my brains out!”

and like 2 mins after “I should go”

and there were so many shit test it was unreal. Actually I’m realizing that LMR is a shit test, isn’t it??

I was saying dirty stuff to her, but I’d bait her first so that if she didn’t like it, it would be her fault… so I’d be like

“hey i…. nothing…” and she’s say “what, what is it? …. “no I shouldn’t say it forget it”… and she’d be all like “no, it’s ok, come on”

“Well, I was just thinking, I would like to pour honey all over you all lick it off…all the way down…” and she went berserk, like grindin’ up against me and shit

anywho what it boils down to is this. I didn’t want to fuck her. She was nuts/needy/boring. No semblance of personality. I wouldn’t do her without a condom cuz I hardly know her, spend like 2 hours with her only - and I don’t think I could have bothered fucking her with one.

She texted me last night as well and tried to get me over there but I was too tired. I guess I should do it, just for you guys hehe but I really don’t care. I am seeing much cooler girls over the weekend.. also I don’t wanna mess this girl up any more.

Now I’m starting to realize that … well I’m going to have to be more picky – being hot is not enough!! I mean I normally am, then I started doing this and I feel like I should just have to lay every hot girl but fuck that. I may not do it. But I might. I can’t decide

Maybe if I frame it like “hey I don’t want a GF etc, so I don’t want u to get the wrong idea, etc….” … I’ll start reading the relationship section heheh