Chillin With Johnny Soporno

June 28th

Hey guys!!

I Hung out with Johnny Soporno yesterday for hours.

I learned so much shit and had so many epiphanies. I took me this long just to accumulate my thoughts and put them down.

There's a whole load of amazing stuff in my head... I can't expect to do justice to his teachings but, I figure I'd pass along whatever my mind has managed to retain. Which, actually, is quite a bit. I think.

Here goes.

So, him, his pornstar girlfriend and I wandered around during the lesbo parade in Toronto. (Yes, it was gay pride week last week!) I saw only 2 cute girls. One I stopped on the street. She had a long term BF but I got her facebook and she seemed keen to attend one of my upcoming shows. The only other hottie was this girl working one of the booths. But she didn't have a brain between her head so I left it. (yes, that's a reason!) lol.

A couple of people asked to have their picture taken with Johnny because of the horns. We also ran into some people he knew. One was was very gay… he’d gotten a penis lollipop and was very busy with the sucking. We have some amusing photo’s. one of the girls in the group was after me (she pinched my butt) but she was just past her prime. Johnny said to her “Sasha’s got a girl who’s up for a 3some, maybe u could get involved?” and she was like “Sure!” .. I appreciate it baby. But I’ll find my own 3some girls, cheers.

Back at Johnny’s place I shared some of my fucked up story with him and he shared a ton of information with me. Talking to him I actually had like a groundbreaking ephiphany. The thing is, I’d had this motherfucking epiphany before when watching his video’s. Now I’ve had it hardcore again. If you’ve seen his material then you already know the epiphany. If you haven’t, I’ll give you the wrapup as best as I can. Essentially, everyone in our society has been tricked to believe that monogamy is good, normal etc. however, it’s in fact a poison on our lives, our society. Not his words, mine. If you actually think about it, having to stay with someone whom you’ve agreed to stay with via a contract (E.G Marriage, or “boyfriend/girlfriend etc” is absolutely ridiculous and not useful.

One of the key points he explained to me was this: If you put boundaries or rules on a relationship – say – we can’t fuck other people. What does that do? It cuts out the competition. What happens then? People get lazy. You don’t have to try anymore. She/he is gonna be there no matter what. It’s like communism in way. You’re stuck. Why try any harder? You get the same every day no matter what. But if you open up those floodgates, whereas both partners can see/do whatever they want with everyone … and they keep coming back and spending time with each other, isn’t that infinitely more powerful? That you [i]choose[/i] to be with this person. That you can do absolutely whatever you want with anyone and yet, here you are. Choosing to spend your time with somebody despite being completely and utterly free to do otherwise is a love far greater than that which comes out of marriage, or any other “agreement.”

HE used this following example. You’ve got a cat. You go to let the cat out of it’s cage one day…. The cat leaps out the window. You panic!! Oh no!! what the fuck! My babyyyyyyyy!! But the cat comes back and everything is ok. The next day you open the cage, and the cat runs off again. Aaarrggh!! You panic! Where did he go! Is he ok!! Doesn’t he love me??? Waaaah. But then he comes back. The third time you open the cage and he leaps out you think…well… probably he’ll come back. And he does. And everything is ok. The 4th time you open the cage you’re like “are you coming out, or what?

Know what I’m saying? Oh yeah.

I can’t even explain what I’ve come to understand and it’s so profound. It completely changes, everything. I said to Johnny “Your reality actually crushes mine so completely, that it makes what I teach pointless. Game is pointless!” … He explained people need to first get to the end of where game can get them to be ready for his teachings. If you can’t actually walk up to a woman and say “hi” without shitting yourself, try explaining to a woman that she should be free – that society’s constraints are BS and she should come home with you right now and fuck your brains out because it’s what she’s hardwired to do.

This makes sense. I get that. That made me feel better. I haven’t been wasting my time for the last couple of years, after all! :P

I threw another one of my limiting beliefs at him. It was this:

I said to him “dude…sometimes if a girl is too easy, I loose interest. I think “I didn’t do shit to get her. She’s fuck any guy. She doesn’t really want me” … I feel cheap so I won’t go for it. It’s fucked up.

Anyone out there get that?

Johnny explained to me that, the woman has in fact, chosen me. I’m 30 years old. So, I’ve spend 30 years becoming myself. The way I walk, talk, act, clothes I wear, things I say, way I talk. Everything about me is different from everyone else. So if she wants’ to fuck ME … she has picked ME. I am the product of years and years of growth, development, adaptation, learning etc etc. You are YOU and nobody else. Why question it? Just go and fuck her brains out.

Seems pretty obvious but it was yet another revelation.

My head is on fire. My world Has been turned upside down. There’s too much fresh knowledge that directly counters all my limiting beliefs at once. IT actually would probably cure all my game issues if I was able to actually adopt them. Here’s what they are. I only realize I have these issues after spending all this time with Johnny. (Thanks a LOT, douchebag!!)

Here goes.

I believe that most women I meet don’t just want to fuck my brains out (I may often joke or behave like I believe they do) but I don’t really believe it.

I believe if a woman puts out too easily she’s a slut, and I respect these girls less than girls I have to put more of an effort in with

I believe somehow I’m screwing women over if I just have sex with them and never see them again. Even if I give them good sex. Sometimes I’ll see women a few times after sex just to make sure I don’t like them. Or, so they don't think I was just using them for sex. How fucked up is that? (This begs the question, why sleep with those girls at all in the first place?)

I feel guilty about dating multiple women at once (well, not dating - sleeping with) - I feel guilty if I think about myself as “a player” ... I really don't feel like I am. Even tho if you ask women, I definitely am. In a way.

This list goes On and On !!

I realize that, ultimately … although I am very free in a lot of ways (and getting freer) I’ve still been brainwashed by society…. The chains of community (and, THE community) are apon me. I’ve sub consciously adopted some kind of belief system that was imposed on “society” long before I came into being. (Well, being in this form, anyways) ;)

Why should I suffer for other people's pre conceived notions of what’s right and wrong? Why should I limit myself or my lifestyle based on said notions? How is that fair or just? I wasn’t asked my opinion . nobody got my consent. Nobody came up to me as I flew out of the womb and said

“Hey buddy. Welcome to planet earth. You’re going to suck with girls. The girls will have all the power. You’re going to be lonely all the time. You’re going to be a doormat for every girl you ever hookup with. Get used to it! Furthermore, you get to just fuck one girl at once, ok, or you’re an asshole. Women are going to pick you, not you them. You’re going to believe hot women have something you want and you’re always going to struggle to get it!”

WHAT THE FUCK?? FUCK YOU, SOCIETY

It’s not easy getting those chains off, either. Even if you see the chains, it’s not easy when just about every other fucking person is wearing the same chains and… they seem ok with it.

Isn’t that amazing? Even If you point to the chains and go “You’re locked up! Look! Look down! There’s chains all over you, you can’t move. Or think, or do what you want!” they’ll say “What? Oh these? Nah it’s ok. These have been here as long as I remember. It’s cool”

I have seen this over and over and over again. Friends with no game. Friends with shitty jobs. People with Girl or Boyfriends they don’t even LIKE. Why? Fear, in a word.

Fear.

Well fuck that!!

I don’t think I want to be wearing these chains anymore. I definitely don’t.

p.s – I didn’t post this for ages as excited as I was because, I didn’t feel my description of what I’d gone thru did Johnny Soporno any justice. But ah well… it’s only one little post. So there it is. I’ll write more when I figure out what the heck it going on. My head feels like it's going to explode!!